Anguished_Madness's Xanga

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 02:59:41 GMT

Yeah...yeah...I know I haven't updated on this site...in forever...SORRY!!! Even though no one touches this Xanga...

Well...here's my new Xanga

www.xanga.com/fortuna_velut_luna

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 12:17:48 GMT

I think this Xanga has lost it's appeal. It no longer entertains me...so I thought maybe if I started out with a new one...it would be more....entertaining...so...I guess I will think of a new name...and I'll post it later...

Ja Ne

Chelsea

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 02:03:29 GMT

I am sick!!! -dies- It should go away. It might possibly be because of my sleeping pattern...oh well...I'll get over it...

God...Ricki is throwing a little fit. He is like a fucking child. I mean I am 14 and I don't throw fits, I'll just get pissed, and go in my room, or get on the computer...my mom calls them fits...but they're not...I am just pissed...I don't go around slamming shit, and talking to myself about how horrible everyone is...like he is doing now...I can hear him in the garage. I don't see how my mom isn't gay after all the shit she has gone through with guys. But...yeah...the reason Ricki is throwing a fit is his own god damn fault. He quit his job...and we have been broke as hell...But the reason he quit his job is because he didn't like his boss...Which I honestly think is stupid as hell. I hate my teachers most of the time, and do I quit school??? No...and he has to work...So what...if your boss is an ass...he still payed him what he was suppose to...and we had pretty good money...so...as of late...he has been trying to get jobs...well...I don't think he really is trying...but he did get a short one...and the people he worked for pretty much screwed him over with the money...and now he is too god damn arrogant to look in the fucking phone book and get someone to hire him...and if he wants to go back to his old job...he sure as hell can....he just doesn't want to...His boss is his stepdad...and his mom said that he could already take the job back...and he just doesn't fucking want to...and if he did...everything would be back to normal...we would actually have money again...and so pretty much my mom is really pissed at him...she talked to me about it last night...and she was saying that she fucking hated her work, but she isn't going to quit because she know she has a life to maintain...and I completely agree with her...so my mom is pissed...and Ricki is throwing fits...always so fun....

Yeah...there is alot of other things going on...I don't even want to talk about it...I am so fucking pissed as of late...but yeah...not going to complain anymore than I already have...

Ja Ne

Me...

P.S. If I bitch at you...I most likely don't mean it...I have been bitching everyone out...sorry if I already have bitched you out...

Friday, June 24, 2005

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 05:17:48 GMT

Hmmm....I really need to start posting again!!!! I have noticed that some people have started to like my Jisastsu Sakuru ((Suicide Circle)). Ech!!! I love that movie so much!!! I am like addicted to it!!! I finally got the new one without the broken disc holder though, which makes me very happy! Right now...I am chowing down on Pocky as usual...that is pretty much the only thing I ever eat any more...besides when I am foreced to eat to by mother.

Hmmm...interesting past events. I stayed up pretty much all night and watched anime on Adult Swim with Ariel...I kind of like Paranoia Agent...although it was weird as hell....but very interesting opening...yes...if you have seen you know what I am talking about...yesh...

I went to the Rockin Rodeo with Jessica...which was absolutely fucking horrible!!! I will never go there again....Rap music for three damn hours will drive a person insane if they hate rap music...which is me...although we did make fun of the people dancing..it was great....

Ok...well...more recent events...yesterday I hung out with Kagome, Sango, Kenshin, and Ren....yeah...that was fun...we went to the skatepark...and Colton was there...he is a little short boy with blonde hair...I fucking hate him...he would come up to me....and be like..."You're freaking crazy." and walk off...I am thinking..."Yeah...I am...but uhm...what do you want???" Everyone kept hitting on Kagome and Ren yelled at everyone. I love Ren she is the bestest!

I also FINALLY got my camera back. I am so happy. I love my camera. I wouldn't have had to send it to be repaired if it wasn't for the fact that someone dropped it down the Lincoln Memorial stairs...which are very huge...sure it didn't break right then...but it wouldn't have broke if that didn't happen...and that same person whose name I am not going mention also has my memory card. Which I really need back! I'll get it back sometime soon.

I also fell in the shower today. -_-;; It was painful. I have an internal bruise on my shoulder. EEEEKKKK!!!! It hurts! It was kind of funny though. I am a klutz like that. Yep!

I know probably no one is going to read this, oh well...the whole purpose of having a Xanga is for my amusement....not yours! Well...I'm going to go. I think I am going to change the look of my Xanga...

Ja Ne!!!

Chelsea

and lots of other random names....

Monday, June 06, 2005

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 03:28:19 GMT

Yeah, I have not posted in forever. I really need to get back in the habit of doing so. Let's see...I bought Jisatsu Sakuru. I love that movie so much. And when I did buy it. the thing that holds the disk was broke. So I took back to Hastings, and they had to re-order it because it was the last one, and they said it would take 7-10 days for it to come. I also bought Pockies. I heart Pockies!!!! And I also bought the unrated director's cut vesion of The Grudge. It is way better than the original one. There are not that many changes up until the end, but overall it was really good. I also went and saw Star Wars....it was really good...Anakin=sexiness! Except for the part were Darth Vader just screams "NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!" It was really kind of stupid. I hate summer, it just gets so boring after a while. If only there were things to do in Abilene! Yeah...I really do have anything else to say....so yeah...bye!

Chelsea

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Wed, 25 May 2005 21:34:35 GMT

I stole this lovely quiz from Marianne. I like taking quizzes, they kick ass! I have some pictures to post...I'll post them at the end...

WHAT YOU WEAR

1. Do you wear spike bracelets? I used to...

2. Do you wear jelly bracelets? Occasionally

3. Do you wear converse? Once

4. Do you wear black nailpolish? I used to...but then I just stopped...I am not sure why..

5. Do you wear band t-shirts? Sometimes

6. Do you wear skateboard companies? I have an element shirt...but only because I liked how it said earth air fire water...

7. Do you wear surfing companies? no...

8. Do you wear dirtbike companies? no..

9. Do you wear striped shirts? no...

10. Do you wear solid polo shirts? no...

11. Do you wear chokers? Hai

12. Do you wear lock necklaces? I want a neclace with a lock and a key...those are cool...

13. Does it take you five minutes or less to do your hair? when I fix it...no...

14. Do you wear lots of eyeliner? When I feel like it...

15. Do you use a backpack or messenger bag? Messenger Bag

16. Do you wear darker colors? Yeah...but then I will wear the occasional holy fuck that's bright colors

17. Do you wear neon colors?Not really...

18. Do you wear 'whats in' or stick with your old jeans? hah....I wear whatever the hell I feel like wearing at the moment...

19. Do you wear sweatshirts and jeans? Hai

20. Do you wear knee socks? If I had any...

WHAT YOU HAVE

21. Do you have character shoe laces? Nope

22. Do you have drumstixx but dont play? Nope

23. Do you have guitar pics but dont play? I have Jessica's old guitar pick...but that doesn't count becuase she left it over here...

24. Do you have the Nightmare Before Christmas on tape or DVD? DVD

25. Do you have the Breakfast Club on tape or DVD?Niether...

26. Do you have 16 Candles or Pretty in Pink on tape or DVD? Niether...

27. How many CD's do you own? Enough...plus the music I have on my computer...

28. How many DVD's do you own? 20ish...I am gonna buy Suicid Circle

29. How many tapes do you own? Too many...mainly all Disney...

30. How many piercings do you have? Just 6 in my ears...

31. How many tattoos do you have? None...

HABBITS

32. Do you write your name a million different ways on 1 blank sheet of paper? Not really...I don't like my name...

33. Do you draw a lot of pictures of hearts? In letters...

34. Is the volume on anything that plays music in your house really loud? All the time

35. Do you stay up late to watch Invader Zim? Nope...

36. Do you sing out of key purposly when your hyper? All the time...

37. When a song comes on you like do you rock out? Rock out??? Rock out...I...no...

38. Do you push buttons multiple times? Yeah...all the time...sometimes I'll do it on my computer and it freezes alot...buttons kick ass though....

39. Do you draw with white out on a lot of stuff? No...

40. Do you color your nails with sharpies? Occasionally, when I have a Sharpie...

41. Do you sit there listening to songs and relate the lyrics to your life? Not really...I'll listen to sad songs when I am depressed...but other than that...no...

42. Do you pick one song and learn all the lyrics? I learn the lyrics to all the songs I like...

43. Do you daydream a lot? Oh god, all the time...

44. Do you share lockers with your friends? I never even use my locker...

45. Are you distracted by shiny objects? When they are really shiny...yeah...

46. Do you know where every sharp object is in your house? Yep

47. Do you play DDR constantly? Nope...

48. Do you write on your skin with pen? Yeah....

49. Do you bite your nails? Yeah...it's a habbit...I think it feels funny when they are too long...

50. Do you update your xanga daily? I got out of that habbit for a little while...but I am trying to get back into it...

51. Do you have more guy than girl friends? Nope...

52. Watch FUSE 24/7? I think that's a Rock music emo thing on tv...I saw it on in San Diego last Summer...

53. Do you have a favorite pillow? My squishy pillow...

54. Do you have oversived stuffed animals? Nope...

55. Are you secretly in love with your friends older brother?I was once...

56. Do you play with lighters?Yeah....I like matches better though...they smell so good...

DO YOU WANT TO ...

57. Be in a mosh pit? I am not sure...

58. Go to a party your parents would never approve of? It's not like I daydream about it all the time...but I would...

59. Go to Warped Tour? Not really...

60. Runaway from home? Sometimes

61. Tell everyone off? Some people...

62. Go to California with someone you love? California is nice...but it would be better somewhere else...but still California kicks ass!!!

63. Have a practical president for once?Yep...

64. Make peace with an enemy? God no!!!

65. Make out with someone from a band? So many people from a band...

66. Buy out Pac Sun or Hot Topic? Hot Topic...

67. Get a piece of candy by now? NERDS!!! Or maybe a Pocky...reversible Pocky...does that count as candy???

68. End this survey? I'm bored...

YOUR LIFE____

[x] they call me: Chelsea

[x] also: Amarra

[x] sex: Female/Female ^_^ heh heh

[x] my first breath of air: Abilene...how horrible it was...I am moving when i get out of high School...

[x] age: 14

[x] status: Single...hopefully not for long...

[x] occupation:Student...

[x] best homegirl[s]:Homegirls? Hah... Ariel...Nikki...Catelin...I don't like people...

____REWIND____
[x] most memorable memory: too many...

[x] worst?: again...too many...

____FAST FORWARD____
[x] college planning to go: UCLA...I have wanted to go there for forever...

[x] future resident in: Japan...maybe...Tokyo...

[x] wedding: ...

[x] children: ...

[x] looking forward to thanksgiving: I don't really care...

[x] NOT looking forward to: I am not sure...

____PLAY____
[x] feeling: Tired...I need to sleep!

[x] Listening to: Niku-Kana

[x] Talking:I am not saying anything...

[x] doing: Typing...

[x] craving: A Pocky...

[x] thinking of: This quiz...

[x] hating: Nothing really...

____LOVE?____

[x] love is: When you hold each other...and all your heart does is pound...

[x] first love: I have liked a lot of people...but I have really only loved one person...Nikki...

[x] current love: Nikki...

[x] love or lust?: Love.

[x] best love song: I am not really sure...

[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one
person @ the same time?: Inlove? No...

[x] when love hurts, you: Hide it from everyone else

[x] true or false - all you need is love: False....

[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: Yeah...

____PICKY PICKY____

[x] dog or cat: Cats...

[x] short or long hair: Long

[x] innie or outie: Innie....

[x] sunshine or rain: Rain...

[x] moon or sun: Moon

[x] basketball or footballl: Niether...

[x] righty or lefty: Both

[x] hugs or kisses: Depends on who it's from...

[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 1 best friend..

[x] tv or radio: Radio...I don't really ever watch TV unless it's a DVD...

[x] starbucks or jamba juice: Starbucks...but Jamba Juice is really good as well...I had it in California...I love Calfornia...

[x] mc donalds or burger king: McDonald's

[x] summer or winter: Winter

[x] written letters or e-mails: Written Letters.

[x] playstation or nintendo: I like both...

[x] disney or nickelodeon: Disney...

[x] car or motorcycle: Car...

[x] house party or club: House party...maybe a club...

[x] sing or dance: Sing...

[x] yahoo messenger or aim: AIM

[x] google or ask jeeves?: Google (("I googled till I just couldn't Google no more."- Willow))

____MISCELLANEOUS____
[x] whats your most embarrassing moment?:too many to name...

[x] what are you scared of?:Spiders, losing people that I care about...

[x] what is your greatest accomplishment?: I haven't really accomplished anything...

[x] what kinda roof is over your head?: Well...it has tiles..

[x] do you like tomatoes?: Nope...

[x] how many DVDs do you have?: I already answered that...

[x] last doctor visit: The end of last month...

These are the picture from when the Choir Aide's went to eat out at Abuelo's with Miss G.

Kirby

Maria

Jana

All of us on the Abuelo Statue Man

Jana....what a slut...^_^

The picture with the guy with the mohawk messed up!!!! -whines-

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Wed, 25 May 2005 03:24:59 GMT

-randomly dies- I was almost done with that post, and I accidentally clicked out of it...-sight- Oh well...I will post it again...I am still bored anyway...

RANDOM PICTURES!!!!

Ariel's Works: ( www.xanga.com/you_walk_alone )

I forced her to do that due to the fact that I don't have Print shop anymore.

She also wrote the poem.

My work:

That is all I have due to the fact that I lost everything on my computer.

Harry Potter:

This one was just so stupid...it was funny...

ANGEL:

The size is all messed up...but oh well...

Randomness:

That's seriously about a certain person...

Marianne's Lovely Bondage Bear!

That's also about someone...the same someone...

Thats about "person"

CREEPY!!! I think that it is from 13 Ghosts....

Blurryness of me!

My Kana picture doesn't work!!!! -cries- Oh well...I'll fix it later...I am going to redo my layout tommorow as well...

Love

Chelsea

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Tue, 24 May 2005 21:05:15 GMT

Hmmm....well...I have not updated in a while. I have been in a major depressive state. But I am over most of the stuff...just one thing though...but, hopefully it will be fixed soon.

Hmmm...here is what all has happened that is signifigant...I did not make Color Gaurd...of course...I get so frecking nervous at auditions, and I get scared, and nothing happens. It sucks. I thought I was pretty good at it though...oh well...-sigh-

I just got back from Springdale, Arkansas. My cousin graduated from High School. Yay for him! It was fun though, my cousin and his girlfriend are really cool. I went to the mall in Fayetville, a town close to Springdale, and bought Pockies, Reversible Pockies, some kind of Japanese Strawberry soda, and the 5th Kill Me Kiss Me.

Today, I got my year book...I will post some of the comments at the end. I look like such a dork. I kind of look like I overdosed on happy pill, and was told to smile really big. Oh well...I think it's funny.

I also got my TAKS scores, and I am so fucking proud of myself. I made a PERFECT score in reading. wOOt! And I only missed two on the US History. Here are my exact scores:

Subject Correct Total

Reading: 48 48 (commended performance)

Math: 39 50 (I suck at math!)

US History: 46 48 (commended performance)

Yay -ish so proud of myself-

Some of the yearbook signings...

Chelsea, When I first met you....yeah we didn't exactly get along after like everything you heard about me (lol) then I started going out with Chaseand like yeah..."other stuff happened" w/ you and me And then we hated each other again 4 a while then we became "BETTER Friends" (lol) Now we're here Cooper is going to be a blast next yeat with us and out "Randomnesse(s)" ((draws sexclamation point)) Wow (sexclamation point) 4 tuesdays and thursdays-(Nikki) and mondays and wednesdays 4 you and weee can can all be together on Fridays ((draws hearts everywhere)) ((draws another heart)) Ya Babe 692-4562 Catelin Holley ((draws more hearts))

Hey

it was in choir this year ill miss you when i have to move this summer and when you go to cooper good luck you will definetly go far. Like an eagle ((draws heart)) ya so much bye stay in touch 793-9302 REMEMBER ME xox "Like an Eagle" This school yeah has been so short. I'm gonna miss your craziness! Have fun in High School! Kelsea Polk

Chelsea,

You are too awesome! I'm so glad I met someone like you this year. Can't wait to see you next year!

Luv ya Lots!,

Shelby Lyn Lachowitzer

Hey gurl, it's been great this year! I've loved hanging out w/ you!Imma gonna miss you over summer! You and all your randomness! ((heart))ya babe!Can't wait 'til high school! See ya next year.

Katie Baugh

P.S. I decided I had to sign up-side-down. ((heart)) ya babe ((heart))me

Youre freakin cool

Lance Wing

695-5975

Hi!

This year has been so great, many thanx to you. I don't know how I would have gotten along without you! You seemed to always be there when I needed you most, and were always willing to cheer me up when I was sad...I'm glad I'll be able to see you again next year!! Post, call and email me! 698-6440/725-6425

Sesshomaru377@yahoo.com

((Heart)) ya much!!

Ranesia Riley

That one meant a lot to me and made me happy!!!

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Tue, 10 May 2005 22:52:36 GMT

There is just so much shit I wish I could take back. I just...I don't know...I fucking hate it all...I have done so much to screw things in my life up...I have lost so much...and I know that there is no way of getting it back...no matter how hard I try...I just wish I could start over, but I know I would end up making the same damn mistakes...I have been acting so fucking happy when I am not at all...just so I can hide the way I really feel...not for anyone else...but for me...I don't want to feel the way I did again. I miss people that I thought I never would lose, because of stupid shit I did...I am fucking pathetic and worthless...I suck at everything...I just want to end my life, but, hell, I don't even have the courage to do that. I am not doing this to get attention so you know this...I don't care anymore...don't post your "Oh, I am sorry" comments. I prefer not to hear them...I just needed to get this out...some way or another...

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Wed, 04 May 2005 21:19:13 GMT

My background is all messed up! Someone probably messed with it...oh well...I was going to change this layout sometime soon anyway. Well, the reason I have not updated in a while was because Friday night Nikki spent the night and stayed untill like 8 Friday, and I RP'ed for the rest of the night. Then on Sunday...I was working on my Angel/Buffy The Vampire Slayer website. Not all day though...but still had to do other things that day....like try to fix my computer....that was not fun. There was some kind of virus that my virus detector was not detecting, and Ariel and I could not find a way to get rid of it, so last night I deleted EVERYTHING off of my hard drive, and had to reinstall Windows XP....and so basically I have nothing on my computer at the moment. Oh well...I can get it all back, except the pictures I took on my digital camera...but the thing is I can live without those...but my mom might be kind of mad that I lost my Washingotn DC pictures....oh well....OH YEAH!!!!!!! Nikki did not want to break up with me and she doesn't like Chris...so everything is ok between me and her except one little thing...but it can be fixed...My mother is getting my camera taken back sometime soon....hopefully soon...I want to take pictures of the Roller Coaster Project in IPC....Hmmmm.....this should be the classes I am going to take next year....

Pre-AP English

Pre-AP Algebra

Pre-AP US History

Pre-AP Biology

Color Gaurd

ROTC

Choir

I swear I am missing one class because you are suppose to have eight and I only have seven...oh well...but I am kind of scared....those are of Pre-AP classes...it's scary....

Chelsea

Akita

Amarra